wow.

wow.
life is continuously stupefying and amazing. everything seems to be spinning more and more out of control. maybe if i were a surfer or a cyclist i could make up some badass analogy of this situation. my brain is so out-of-sorts... i can't seem to keep up with anything. i'm back to feeling like it's all just a big waiting game... and this is no way to live. don't get me wrong... in the face of all this uncertainty and potential for horrible, rotten nastiness i'm still holding on to a great deal of optimism. i'm pretty sure of a few things:
- i don't know how to keep my emotions in check without my support network.
- missing another boone summer could be highly detrimental to the future of my emotional well-being.
- working on joel's album is the only immediate progress i can make in the pursuit of furthering any continued opportunities to produce the type of art i want to be making for the rest of my life.

there's where i am.
not too much doom and gloom. just some huge questions.