to physically intuit... or a ramble in search thereof.

i have several fantasies. one of these is that one day i will no longer take my intuition for granted. when i pay attention, it consistently astounds me. specifically my ability to recognize goodness in people. initially this could be misinterpreted as a horribly judgmental practice... until you live with the results of paying attention to what your insides are telling you. something is built-in. and it functions accurately. much like the smell of another person. some physical chemistries between people JUST WORK. for me it's horribly apparent when they don't. when i ignore this basic instinctual safe-guard, it inevitably results in a negative outcome. it is THERE. and it's there for a very basic evolutionary reason concerning the procreation of the species... which i will take no part in, but nonetheless. the body speaks to us. granted, short-circuits occur and there are flaws built-in (and by this i mean propensities that would cause the brain to literally self-destruct). but consistent, long-term signs should not be ignored. chemistry... taste... smell... some people just smell like home. even the "worst" smells that their body produces are comforting. when morning-breath is comforting... you're onto something... but more than that... if it ISN'T comforting... RUN... tactfully and taking into account the essential value of that person on this planet... run. not saying that this is a guideline for anyone but myself. but a beautiful woman reminded me today that i've had the privilege of experiencing more love in my short life than most people could hope to experience in many lifetimes. another beautiful woman reminded me once that not only am in love with two of the most amazing people on planet... but they love me. a mixture of intuition and instinct brought me to this point in my life. i hope one day i will have the faith in myself to act upon both of these blessings more readily. there is a difference between instinct and intuition... but for me the line is very blurry.